First, I know this blog entry is about a week late, sorry about that! After my first two entries, I spent a lot of time reading other people’s blogs. I realized that the blogs I loved the most were ones that seemed to really carry the voice of the person writing it. They are genuine. One of the blogs I keyed on was that of Lauren Fleshman Thomas (asklaurenfleshman.com). Yes, I do currently live with her and her husband Jesse (who also has a killer blog at leapdaysports.com), so there may be a little roommate bias, but the thing I like the most about the blog is that you actually hear Lauren’s voice…crazy as it sometimes is!
She recently had a long workout to do, I had already run, but said I would go along as company while riding the ElliptiGO. During the warm-up I explained to her my desire to find my own voice within this blog. We had a brief talk about things that she thought about as she tried to write, but soon the workout started and I forgot about the idea of blogging entirely. Instead, I was trying to focus on my real job…providing stories to keep Lauren’s mind off the fact that she was actually doing a 9 mile tempo (which she absolutely destroyed). Fortunately for me, Lauren had not forgotten our initial conversation. I started relating to her the stories of how I’d gotten from being a collegiate athlete to where I am now. About half way through the first story (and keep in mind she was mid-workout and hauling ass), she stopped me and said, “you realize this should be your next blog, right?” I hadn’t. But she was absolutely right. I told probably 3 or 4 other stories throughout the workout, and each time she’d respond with, “there’s the next blog,” “that’s one more.” I don’t know if I was any help whatsoever for her workout, but damn it, Lauren really got me excited about this blog!
And so, here we are. I hope that this is the beginning of my voice…how I got to where I am, and where I intend to go.
The Why
Part of me would love to say that I got to this phase of my career in the same manner as most of my fellow professional track and field colleagues. Most of these athletes are former All-Americans, NCAA Champions, USA National Champions, etc. For many, they came out of college with a professional contract. They were recruited by professional coaches and groups. They knew their direction and stayed on the track they had been following (no pun intended)…this was not exactly how things went for me.
After having success in high school (I won the 2001 Illinois High School State Championship 1600m in 4:10), I went on to Duke University. For a variety of reasons I did not have any athletic success while there (Lauren decided to try to create a Wikipedia page for me recently and we summed up my collegiate career as: Ian had no notable collegiate athletic accomplishments…all in good humor, but not at all far from the truth). My fastest 1500m was a 3:50.03 my sophomore year at ACC Championships…coincidentally, that was just 0.03 seconds slower than I needed to run to qualify for Regionals that year.
So there I was. While most people I compete with now were finishing college with glowing resumes and stories of NCAA Championships, I hadn’t even qualified for a Regional Championship meet. I think this is the point where most would say, “well, I guess everyone else just has way more talent,” and they hang it up. I know plenty of people who have done it. They have moved on to amazing lives, and I am certain that most of them have no regrets at all about the decisions they have made…but I couldn’t do that…I knew I WOULD have regrets.
There are so many people who say, “I could’ve done X,” or, “I could’ve been Y.” The one thing I know I want for my life is to NOT be one of those people. When I graduated from Duke, the only thing I knew was that I didn’t run close to my potential. I knew that I needed to find out how good I could really be. I knew that if I didn’t at least try, I would be 50 years old and talking about how good I could’ve been if I’d only done something different. I had no idea where to start. I didn’t even have a clue as to how to begin to try to keep running. The only thing I knew was that I had to try…
